4/16/06 12:21 am - Down in The Dumps
Heys there people. I've got confessions to make, and they ain't good. So listen up!
Firstly, this Ryal thing is driving me crazy. I feel like crap. The only decent convo we've ever had is the one we had at his place. I hardly know him and I'm obsessing over him. I'm cursing him for prancing away to England just when easter Break began. I think about him literally 24/7, so much so it's driving me up the wall. Everytime I have to go down to Ryal's Dad to convey a message from Mum, I freak out, and these weird thoughts occur to me, some of which I don't want to mention here! I'm always crying over spilled milk (it's highly unlike me, cross my heart), about how it was stupid of me to send those crappy "getting to know you" forwards to HIM; I'm sure he thinks I'm jobless. I read up about the "Virgo Man" in Linda Goodman's Sun Signs, and totally freaked out when it said that a Scorpio woman and Virgo man are not compatible... I've never believed in Zodiac drivel, for Heaven's sake! The strange part is, however, I could actually relate Ryal's thoughts and behaviour to the description of a Virgo guy.. it was freaky, I swear. It seems that he's reeeally particular about who he falls for, and a typical Virgo seems like a hypochondriac. They're perfectionists, right? *Groan*.. Kill me now!!
Am I clearly crossing my limits? What do I do? I reeeeally need your advice, people. I need help!
Secondly, NO, it's not fun having 16/17-year-old Kishore around. He's a really sweet cousin, to be very honest. He's a nice guy, very sincere. But he can be verrry bugging! He can be unpleasantly forceful, a little "duh". But hell, I was once a "duh" simpleton, I should be sympathising. But at the moment the best I can do is try and be really nice to him; he doesn't deserve my shit. It's the little things that bother me; can't explain them. But you know what I mean, don't you?
Thirdly, this University thing is intimidating me. What if I'm not good enough for Hong Kong University? I was going through my friend's profile on Friendster and while checking out her other friends, I discovered that I actually know some of them and they happen to be bitches -- big-time! Her friends seem a little "all-that", you know what I mean? The kind who appear very superficial. It all looks so scary.
Okay, I'm thinkig too much. It's not right of me to judge them by their pictures, and poses, and pouts, and whatever them pi**s do. I'm a strong person. I'm a fighter.. I can do this. Of course I'm good enough; hell, I might even be too good for them! All I need to do is be myself. So I'll just take a deep breath and...................